So, Music?

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 Music.

Music makes me want to fly, drink, sleep, fuck, make love, touch, kiss, drive, drive fast, drive faster, drive fastest, live, end life, drown, hang myself, scream, laugh, giggle, slap someone, hate, love, bust moves, lay perfectly still, eat, cry, nap, go on an adventure, watch a movie, melt into someone, run away from someone, lay next to someone, lay alone ( The Man Who Sold the World playing and he sings as I type this,... alone..... ) , punch someone, do drugs, go out, go eat, cook, do chores, do nothing at fucking all, experience, shut down, reminisce, look forward, look back, slip into something more comfortable, get dressed, undress, listen to more music, dress up, put on sneakers, go bare footed, put on heels, draw, create, surprise someone, be surprised, buy presents, get presents, have a party, sit in the forest, open my eyes, close my eyes, tidy, dirty, smell good, smell, break things, fix things, fix myself...

#FindingMyself. My new list. My new life with or without those I knew.

If you do not feel any of this or most, there is no future for us. There just isn't.

I'm intense, maybe too intense but it is how I know I'm alive. I don't want to numb down or balance out to a medium and stay there. I have come to embrace my downs as much as I have my ups.

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